Things have been so hard here. I know that I should be grateful to live in the country that I love, but I am so utterly alone. Despite frequenting local cafes and restaurants I haven't made any friends. I am lucky t have made a few friends through the school that I am at, yet that too isn't living up to the dream of what I thought it would be. I am really lonely. Thankfully my work allows me to channels these feelings into it, but still it is hard and sometimes I just want to give up.